Nina in Japan

I have a confession to make. Maybe several confessions. 


But don't be surprised and say ''Eeeehhh?"

Okay! Here it comes. 

First of all, despite the fact that 

my annual exam is VERY NEAR 

around the corner, still I don't study 

that much anyway. And second of all, 

I'm addicted to 'Nina In Japan'! 

That I've been watching and 

stalking to her videos uploaded by 

her Papa since she was merely a toddler. 

They are fascinating!

Unintended

Yesterday was a nightmare. I just closed my eyes and lay there like a beached whale, which every inch of my body aching. Even my hair hurt. However, the worst part was me performing a freak SHOW. 


With that degree of aching, I went screaming on and off. Very abnormally loudly.


And I was the freak.


So, today, I'm absolutely NOT sharing about yesterday. I'd wish to tell myself that yesterday was nothing. Nothing is ever nothing. It's always something.


Well then, let me spread the story of yesterday's yesterday to a yesterday, to another yesterday. I'm pretty sure it means a lot of yesterdays.

Nobody but you

 

I'd give my all to have

Just one more night with you

I'd risk my life...lalalalala

Melancholy.

Now, I don't know whether you know it, but I have a new pet. And it is a cat. It is not so little tom, with fine big whiskers and a nice long bushy tail. So white all over and so fluffy.

Very very very playful. It runs all over my spacious room..on my desk  pretending to study, then on my keyboard replying all the instant messengers on the screen. It hops to the floor, furiously to the mirror watching his reflection wondering if there's another cat behind it. Most of the times, it sits on my super duper new printer washing his face to come out printed on a piece of paper. Next, it climbs my bed that I refused to share with, so I sacrifice my pillow to satisfy him. It curls as i take him with his pillow on my lap. It sleeps soundly.

Distraction

What is 'lucky'?

Months ago during my attachment at a KK in my place, I introduced myself as a medical student in Egypt. And the staffs said, "Yana, you are very lucky!" Despite the lucky me, in there was the first time in my life dealing with real blood drawing and unsurprisingly I failed a few times. Yet, I was still lucky.

Years ago, even when I told my most bossom friend in world (credit to Nasratul Naim), that my life turned upside down and my parents were hating each other, yet she uttered dearly, "Don't you realize how lucky you are?"

After all I've been through in my life, all the setbacks, frustrations, disappointments, problems and breakdowns...yet I have to consider myself as 'lucky'?

Expression

 

Truth as clear and blue 

as the sky we walk under.
Love as bright and loud 

as the lightening and thunder.
Peace as pure and white 

as the moon, so full of wonder.
So many different colours of Islam!

I miss my paintings

True. I haven't been painting lately. And that made me feel like losing my wings. 

Painting as a hobby can be a very satisfying and relaxing form of recreation. The hobby of oil painting or watercolor painting can help my balance, especially if I am in a high-stress position.